Change For The Better Day Three

What I lived in now was denial for years claiming everyone else had the problem. No I did not drink all the pepsi and pass out on the floor. Everyone is different we all have our own level of tolerance. Remember fit your vice in place of mine. Yes, I did eat the whole large pizza by myself but I do not have a problem.

The reason I know that I am fine is because of what the doctor told me. He said if you are at least five foot and seven inches tall. It is just fine to weigh twoo hundred and thirty-eight pounds. What do you mean I am setting my own rules! You have got to be kidding I am going on my doctors advice for weight loss.

What people or things do you have as your support? There is a rate for us all mine was one minute at a time! It is very important that you listen to your innner self saying you are strong. You need to also listen to that outer support whether it be children, wife and family members.

We are going to glad at this point if anyone believes in us. Remember you have screwed it up so many times with all the bullshit excuses. The buck stops in your pocket no one elses. I do not know how long it will be before you can look in the mirror and see you. The person we once knew had been gone for a long time.

The yesterdays that use to be hours and days have turned into months and years. I have had a problem for a long time and we wish that we could wake up from this dream. I am feel ok today but it is a long time until I lay down for sleep. Thank my boss that I still have a job. I can not understand how I can go to work.

But my vice controls my life. This is the best time to get help. Don't fool your self that is what I thought I got rehabilitated and returned to work. I was sent to HR because they told me I needed to talk with some people about my return to the job. They fired me! Talk about being devasted I had to go home and tell my wife.

I did not know that I could have sought outside help. I was just beginning my path to recovery. I never told my wife what had happened until years after I was let go. I still remember HR telling me we know longer have a use for you. This is right after the company had been sited for bigotry.

Our company did not have one afro-american employee. But that instance passed and I moved on. The hardest part of our lives can be dealing with status quo. Everyone knows the rules and can either abide by them or work around them. It was very hard for me because I had changed careers and I only had three years of longevity.

Right now are you thinking that you fit it this crazy puzzle of life that I am weaving for you. That is because I am know different than you and maybe I am worse for the way my life had gone. So if you are somewhere in between the road to recovery might be a lot shorter. Always remember it is you and know one elses fault where you are in your life.

We all know right from wrong its just the direction we choose to go down the path of life. I had to learn other things did you know that people lose their jobs for being the wrong size. Did you know that people can lose their jobs from talking the wrong language or having the wrong kind of hair. This is the type of bunk and employer will make up to get rid of someone that does not fit.

I am sure that many of you might have heard this verbage. Yes you are the perfect fit for this job or I am sorry your skill set does not match the job description. The worst and most horrific statement is that you are more intelligent than your supervisor. There is no way that you will ever get that job. Just quoting some misrepresented people.

Stress is another good excuse. I just need to relax and if I just eat, drink, take one of these I will feel so much better for it. How addicted are you really? This can turn into life long misery for anyone. Have you ever heard of a hypochondriac? Do you have everything and anything that someone will feel sorry for you? Now that is a disease I am glad I do not have to deal with in my life.

Is anything I have said been of help to you?

Is so I will start out again tommorrow with a change for the better!

Tell me where you are and what you need to talk about?